Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts

5/25/2007

Secret Wedding




















This Sunday I watched Desperate Housewives, wow what a season finale!

My favorite part was when Susan and her daughter had a surprise secret wedding in the woods with Mike. I thought it was the most beautiful scene. I loved the candles on the stones and the flowers and gauze as the arches. I loved the colored Chinese globe lanterns that were hanging from the trees. It looked so magical, like walking through a fairy portal.

Most people that know us think we are married, but eventually they figure out that we have never gotten around to tying the knot. Our wedding got pushed to the side when Tom's mom got sick and then when I got pregnant, we postponed it again. Now, I feel just like Susan. I don't care about the big perfect wedding, I just want to be married to my soul mate. A wedding like this would be perfect, only our closest friends and family in a small ceremony and private dinner. It would be lovely.

I cant add this to my plate just yet, but maybe soon. Oh no, I have a wedding bug crawling on me!

* By the way, it is finals week this coming week and I am swamped with work so please excuse me if I am missing for a few days.
My 100th post is coming up and I was thinking of doing a giveaway... Maybe a pattern, maybe some fabric, we shall see...

5/17/2007

Has it Been A Week Already?

Wow I just realized that I haven't posted in over a week! I have been busy with school and sewing, cleaning and planning.

Yesterday I took down Pumpkin's bed. She has been sleeping on the couch for months and will not sleep in the bed. Right now we are in a one bedroom apartment and I am so happy to have my room back. In a few months she will have her own room and all of her things will go there. We will be painting her bed (it was a hand me down) and her dresser (needs hardware and maybe paint, I really like the shabby chic look of it). I cannot wait to move!

I haven't really talked about the apartment complex I manage and live in, mostly because there isn't much worthy of writing down and what is worthy, is usually a series of unfortunate events that I am drug into because I am manager.

So I have come up with a list of reasons why I cant wait to move...

1. I am moving from my desert hometown to the beach and forest.

2. I live in the ghetto, and its making me racist against my will... This is a long, complicated and controversial topic that I might get into later. I was never racist before and I don't want to be.

3. My apartment will get into the 90s in the summer if the air conditioner isn't always running, thank god I don't have to pay my electric bill (boss pays the bills, almost not worth it).

4. I have never met so many low lives in my life!

5. It is not safe to take my daughter to the local park (drug dealers, gangs, children with appalling behavior)

6. I would never put my kid in one of these schools.

7. I feel like many of the men are undressing me with their eyes... the scary part is I am probably right.

8. My whole life I have had a private outdoor space... until now. I am dying for at least some semi private space outdoors. An enclosed patio would suffice.

9. I want Pumpkin to have her own room.

10. I hate my dark brown carpet.

11. I hate a lot of my furniture and I am planning on taking most of it to the dump.

12. I want to let Pumpkin play outside in the grass and not be afraid of drugs, trash, broken glass, half empty alcohol bottles, etc in the filthy dirt (there is no grass, and they are going to tear out the sad bushes that are here an cover everything with concrete).

13. I origionally had 12 but after another frustrating conversation with maintenance I am soooooooooo happy to never have to work with the maintenance again. They are horrible! Lazy! Sexist! I hate dealing with them. They make my blood boil.

Those are 13, but there are so many more reasons. Lets not forget...
-get Tom away from abusive family
-start on second chapter of our life
-Last but certainly not least UCSC!!! Go Banana Slugs!!! (No Joke...)

5/14/2007

Mother's Day

Mothers Day was very pleasant, just as I wished. Tom had to work so my mom picked up my daughter and I, and we went back to her house. My mothers house, no matter where it is, is a haven away from chaos. Friends and family are always welcome at anytime. They are fed and listened to, given advice and sent on their way, lighter and full of new possibilities.

It was nice to relax and play croquet, a game we haven't played as a family in a decade or more. My mom got me a gift certificate for the salon and I showed her the Amy Butler apron I would have had finished if I had my machine back in time, by the way that's the surprise. I am making one for myself and one for my mom. I cant wait until they are done! They are so beautiful!

So, tonight I have plans to clean up and reinstate my sewing machine in its rightful spot. And I have a bag that has been causing a lot of problems that needs a meeting with the needle. You will see him up on Scent of Rain soon. He is famous, the bag that tricked me into thinking my precious sewing machine was broken. Snatch him up quick... I think I will call him Loki...

5/12/2007

Teardrops

It is amazing how you life can change
one decision.
The whole world crashing
and your heart is breaking
and
the earth tilts on its side.
Vision blurred with tears.
Fear and that stabbing pain in your chest.
My throat is so dry
drops keep falling...
is it real? Will it go away if I close my eyes...

Can this be fixed? Did it go to far this time? What will happen?

5/11/2007

Machine Update and New Fabric Spree

The sewing machine is now in the shop. They are going to give me a call tomorrow and let me know the damages. I have been going crazy without my machine. I have so many ideas that are floating around my head and I want to play with them! I should be writing them down and designing instead on surfing around the Internet.

These are some of the new fabrics I bought in my craziness without my machine. Aren't they great! Look for stuff made with them in my shop.

5/09/2007

A Sigh of Relief and a Growl of Frustration

I have been so worried the last few days. The other day I realized that I didn't turn in my graduation application for school. I have a pretty active imagination so after an hour of worrying I had convinced myself that I was going to be kicked out of UCSC and I would end up homeless on the street begging for food. In the end it didn't matter that it was late, she basically said the deadline was a formality and she has never in 25 years enforced it. Ahhh a breath of relief....

However, a hour later, my stomach was in knots again. I had an essay test on A Portrait of a Lady in my English Lit class today and I have never felt so unprepared for a test! I think I ended up worrying myself silly again. I kept telling myself that this test is not going to matter in 1 year, 5 years, or 10 years. It would be okay. Oh course, I was right, I was unprepared for the test but not like I thought I would be. I am not going to fail and I might even get a good grade on this one. I am aiming for an A on the next though. Next on the reading list it Women in Love by D.H Lawrence. I hear that it has some racy sex scenes in it so maybe it will be a more exciting read then Portrait.

I had my first two sales in my shop today! Thanks go to Maya Jean and Tiny Sprouts. Thanks so much for your support!

Finally the bad part of my day. As I was sewing a new pouch (black with white polka dots and a red lining and zipper, super cute!) the needle hit the metal end of the zipper and I don't know what happened but its not sewing properly now. I hope it is something minor. I have to finish my moms mothers day present and I have lots of new bags cut and ready to sew! I was planning on a day of sewing tomorrow. Ah well, I have to clean the house anyway.

5/07/2007

Cinco de Mayo Party

The Cinco de Mayo party the other night was a blast! I was the only sober person there! I am not a big drinker but I still had a great time. Here are a couple pics celebrating our night.

A mix of adopted family and new friends.

That's Tom and I in standing in Chris's Bar.






Our host, Christian (Toms best friend since forever). A great host with a terrific private bar at his ranch in Juniper Hills, Ca. A great, fun guy.

He is single and shopping if anyone is interested.

We had a great time Chris! We will expect our going away party to be just as great!

5/01/2007

Fun in the Sun

On this beautiful May Day it was finally warm enough to break out the new pool at the neighbors. My little pumpkin had such a grand time. I took so much pleasure while sitting in the sun. I cant wait until I am on a beach every weekend watching her running from the waves and learning to catch sandcrabs.

I have been sewing a bit. I bought Amy Butler's In Stitches book and I really like it. The patterns seem simple to do. I have read through several, but so far I have only finished one.

These are the drawstring bags from the book. They still need the drawstrings and I am going to take pics of them in action. The pirate one is for my brother Sean. He is completely obsessed with Pirates of the Caribbean and has been for over a year or maybe two! The other bag it probably going to stay with me unless a friend decides she has to have it.

These bags also seem to be reversible. Which is why I put some cool liners in the pirate one.

The only thing that I would say about this pattern is that it is a little confusing at first (at least for me), but after I read it over a few times and laid the pieces out it was much clearer. This is an ingenious way to make a bag but it reminds me of when I made my first lined tote. I couldn't figure out how I would pull the whole purse out that hole in the liner and it would look right. I tried it and it worked! This is the same thing. It doesn't seem right at first but it comes out great. I popped both these bags out in an afternoon and I have plans for more!

4/17/2007

A Great Gift

Everyone needs to go to AfricanKelli and sign up to help these orphans. We have so much luxury. We can spare $20 for some toothbrushes, soaps, and lotions.

4/01/2007

Justin

My neighbors kids are so cute. But one of them is so photogenic! Here are some shots of him today. They are so adorable. I really love the close up. You can really see the life in his eyes. I missed class again today. Thanks to my mother who hung up on me the other day, I didn't have a babysitter. It was not my fault that she hung up. She just didn't want to hear the truth. Anyway, she will call when she gets over it.

3/25/2007

I Cant Believe I am Talking About Politics

I have had such a long week. A very fun, but long week. I went to a karaoke bar on Wed with a bunch of old and new friends. Two other girls and I sang Hotel California together. Hubbie loved that. He sat right in front of the stage and watched the whole time with a huge smile. He loved it!
That night had some sad undertones though. Toms best friend of 15 years is going to Iraq for the 3rd time. We are all terrified he wont come back. They put him in command of a unit of misfits going into the heart of Baghdad. I am afraid I will never see him again.

What is this country coming to? Our president is a fool! Why is he still in office. The whole world hates him. Clinton got a blowjob at work and he practically gets fired but this fool sends thousands of handsome young sons and beautiful daughters to get killed halfway around the world. I have a lot of friends from the military who went to Iraq and are coming home and telling us that the news is lying. What they are telling us is not happening. It's much worse. On both sides. Our military is commiting war crimes every day we are there. And the conditions are much worse there then they are telling the general public.

I urge everyone to listen carefully to what you are being told. Free Press is a vision of the past.

Sorry about the soapbox, but I want my friends to come home alive and not dead for nothing more then some Middle Easterners who cant keep their act together. What are we the world police?

3/22/2007

John's in the News

Army medic killed in Iraq loved by many
taken from the Antelope Valley Press, March 22nd, 2007

PALMDALE - He loved his bride of eight months, his family and friends, his music and the military. From all accounts of those who knew Army Sgt. John Allen, he simply loved life.

But the 25-year-old Army medic's life ended Saturday in Iraq, when a roadside bomb exploded near a vehicle carrying him and three fellow 1st Cavalry Division soldiers during the ongoing security sweep in Baghdad.

Private remembrance services for Allen, a 1999 Palmdale High School graduate who served in the Navy before joining the Army and had been on multiple tours in Iraq, are set for 4 p.m. Friday at a longtime friend's home at 2824 East Ave. Q-2, Palmdale.

Allen's funeral will take place at Arlington National Cemetery, where his grandfather is buried, said another longtime friend, Mandy Montgomery.

Montgomery said everyone who knows Allen will remember these things: him doing backflips over the neighborhood wall, him climbing light poles, him carrying cherry Chapstick everywhere and his ability to play piano.

Allen was always thoughtful, Montgomery said.

"John was known for being there for anybody. If he saw you coming home from the grocery, he'd be the first one to help carry the packages," said Montgomery, 22, who knew him since childhood.

Allen also had a passion for drawing.

"The last thing he was working on was a picture of his wife," Montgomery said.

Chris Blaylock, a friend since junior high school, said he "always kept everybody smiling."

"One of my favorite memories: John comes by my home and asks, 'Do you want to go somewhere?' I thought the pool hall or something like that. He tells me, 'Let's drive to Arizona.' He wanted to go visit someone. He always had time for a friend. It was raining. We were driving in my old Camaro," Blaylock, 25, said. "We had a great time."

Allen's parents, Richard and Kellie Allen, were away Wednesday from the family's Palmdale home, where he grew up with his twin sister Amanda and younger brother Adam, now also in the military and stationed in Alaska. A red and gold satin banner from Blue Star Mothers, a military support group, hangs in a front window.

Allen's wife, Aspen, whom he met when he was a senior and she a freshman at Palmdale High School and whom he married in July, is in Texas, where her husband was based at Fort Bliss.

Denver Shinkle, Aspen's brother, said Allen's death hit his sister hard. "She's barely sleeping."

Shinkle remembers his sister's excitement as she announced her marriage plans. "She walked in the door and said, 'You've got a new brother-in-law.' "

He added that July 7 will mark their first anniversary. Allen spent four years in the Navy before enlisting in the Army. While home Allen proposed to his high school sweetheart and she accepted.

Shinkle said this was Allen's third or fourth tour of duty in Iraq.

Aspen's aunt Karen Bosch described her niece as "numb and upset."

Bosch described Allen as "a great young man. He loved my niece and wanted to take care of her."

Shinkle equally admired his brother-in-law. "He was good to my sister and made her happy. That's all that counts. He was outgoing, a funny guy, made everyone laugh. Everyone loved him."

Allen's piano playing introduced him to Palmdale High choir director Mike McCullough.

"He would come into my room to play piano at lunchtime. That's what got him into choir. He came to me late in his high school career - around his junior year. But he was really, really determined to do well. He worked very hard at it."

McCullough said Allen was a baritone and liked spiritual and classical choral music.

"That year we sang 'Ave Maria' by Anton Bruckner. He really loved that," McCullough said.

McCullough called Allen "incredibly respectful - a person of very high character, polite, courteous and a strong young man. I was pretty confident he was going to choose military."

Elisa Clark, president of the Blue Star Mothers, Antelope Valley Chapter 14, said her organization formed to support the armed forces and their families.

At times like this, Clark said, "We do whatever (families) want. If they want us to do food for following the services, we will do that. If they want us to speak at the funeral, we will do that. If they don't want us to do anything, we just stay back. We also prepare a memorial book with prayers, letters and pictures."

"He was just a good kid," said Robyn, 44, a neighbor of the Allens for 19 years who declined to give her last name. "He hung around with all the kids, was always pleasant to be around. He loved art, was an excellent artist."

Kyle, 16, Robyn's nephew, looked up to Allen. Kyle, who also asked that his last name not be used, lived two doors down from the Allen household for 12 years. His most treasured memory is the Fourth of July, when neighbors from the entire block gathered at the wall, the one Allen used for backflips, and watched fireworks taking place at Palmdale High.

Here is a photo of John and I in High School. I was in 9th grade.

3/21/2007

R.I.P My Dear Friend


John E. Allen was killed by a roadside bomb in Iraq on Sat. March 17th, 2007. He was my brother and my best friend in high school and afterward. He was so much fun and so full of laughter. I knew the last time I talked to him that I would never hear from him again. John always looked at the bright side of things and I know that he is visiting each of us and helping bring a little laughter in. I love you John. Safe Journeys and save me a beer on the other side.

3/20/2007

I am so excited about spring. I love this season! All of the flowers are blooming and the sun is finally shining. Out here it has been in the 80s for the last week. It has really been great.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about Santa Cruz. It is such a huge change for me. I mean, I have never lived anywhere other then here. Its going to be a huge change. I will enjoy it though. It has been my dream to live at the beach and in Santa Cruz we will probably live within walking distance of the beach. Can you believe that! There are some beautiful photos on flikr.com of Santa Cruz if you would like to check it out.

I have been doing a lot of thrifting lately. And I have a new Flickr.com page where all of my photos are. Of course I will still have them here too!

3/18/2007

I Am So Excited!

Isn't she cute?

I haven't been able to stop thinking about Santa Cruz. In case you missed out on the news, I was accepted to UC Santa Cruz. I am going to miss my family and some of my friends but honestly I cannot wait to move away from here. I was born in this town. I know so many people here and I have had to many experiences, good and bad. But this place is my childhood and I am not a child anymore. I need to grab life by the horns and embrace it. That's what I am going to do! I have never moved to a place where no one knew me. It is a fresh start. To prepare I am loosing weight. I have already gone from 175 to 159. Its still coming off too! Yeah!

When we move we are going to have to get rid of a lot of stuff. I cant wait to go through my things with a fine toothed comb. I have so much stuff that I don't need. I really like that clean simple look. Its very relaxing. We are looking for a two bedroom apartment in Santa Cruz so we will have more space. Pumpkin will have her own room for her bed and her toys. She is already sleeping out on the couch. Right now her bed is in our room but she falls asleep every night on the couch and then we move her to her bed, but in the middle of the night she is moving back to the couch. I hope to put her in her own room when we move.

That photo is one of the beaches in Santa Cruz. Isnt it beautiful? I am so happy to be moving there. Its a dream city to live in. Hey, I grew up in the desert!

3/16/2007

Where Have I Been

I have been having so many computer problems over the last month and they are finally fixed. I bought a computer from PC Club which is a great place to buy a computer. I recommend them to anyone. I can now upload photos! And I am buying a new digital camera soon. For now I have my moms. As soon as I figure out how to get pics on my computer from it I will post pics of all the dresses I have made in the last month. Spring fever!

Oh Yeah!!!! BIG NEWS!!!!

I was accepted to the University of California at Santa Cruz. I am moving to the beach!! We are so excited! Our who lives are shooting off and we are having a blast!

2/17/2007

Late Night Eggplant

Oh My God! I cant believe it is 3 am! I have to get up to take my dear hubby to work at 630am! This is an ungodly time to wake up in the morning. I like to enjoy my early mornings, at least the rare ones I do have. I lounge around on my couch sipping coffee or a new herbal tea and I read something inspiring while I enjoy the freshness of the day.

Tomorrow I have school, Archaeology 101. I decided to skip class on Wed so I am really hoping that they didn't announce that we were having class at some remote location. I don't really think that will happen but its a possibility.

My Hubby got a new job! Yeah! He is making decent money and our poorness is over! I am actually paying all of my bills and stopping off at the quilt shop for fabric shopping tomorrow! I have been so excited about it the last 2 weeks. I mean... we actually have money. We haven't had money for a very long time. Our time has just began!

I promised an update with the gym. I am still working on it. I did go several times and I plan on going this week but my anniversary, Valentines, and quality time with hubby and my pumpkin got in the way. However I have been making efforts in the grocery department. Lots of chicken and veggies. I bought huge amounts of veggies tonight at the store. I even bought an eggplant! I have never cooked or even eaten eggplant before. But it is such a handsome color.

Wish me luck on my ventures! Does anyone know a good recipe for eggplant?

2/06/2007

Quick Visit

I wanted to drop a quick hello. School went great today. I think my teacher is pretty cool and the class looks fun. I think I will have interesting stories about her later.

Then I went to the gym and got a free week membership. I am going to sign up for 3 months at the end of the week. Today I went and I did a half mile on the elliptical machine in 15 min. I stretched and I sat in the steam room for 10 minutes. I feel great.

Ok Its really late... well early so I am going to sleep! I am so tired.

2/03/2007

Spring and the Coming of the Gym

I am beginning to wake up. The first day of February has past and the sun has been growing since Winter Solstice. Now is the beginning of Spring as we see it. The other day I smelled the first breath of warm spring wind. That is always the beginning. Next comes the rain and then the flowers, then we are right into Summer! I live in the desert so these things happen faster here.
Don't worry, Snow Bunnies in the crafting world, Spring is on its way!

With Spring comes school and I begin my last semester of junior college. I am only taking two classes so I better get an A in both. Intro into Fictional Literature and Intro to Archaeology 2. Which is a hands on class by the way! I cant wait.

My biggest news is that I am going to join a gym...again. I have been waiting until I had the money for the fees for so long now I am scared about going. I am desperate to loose this weight. I hate being this heavy and I want to feel healthy again. I used to love going to the gym and I think I could love it again. It was my time alone with my thoughts with little interruption. And I felt great at that time. I want that again and if I am moving to a seaside town I am going to want to be swimsuit ready and healthy! Please leave me your support. I really need it. Thanks! I will let you know how things are progressing.

Oh Yeah! Cowboy found a great new job! He loves it! Yeah for my honey!

1/10/2007

Can we come out now?

Now that the holidays are officially over we are coming back to normal. Things have been so busy and stressed that I am just exhausted! We all are.

I have been thinking about my sewing machine lately. I think I am going to make some more stuff for me. I have been sewing a lot for others around the holidays and I want things that make me feel good now. I have to clean off a very messy table to get to sew though.

My partylite starter party is this Sat the 13th at 2. If you would like to order some excellent candles and accessories please leave me a comment.

I am so tired. I will write more tomorrow. And I am going to update the tutorials and I am going to talk about the decorating I have been doing and planning. Its all so exciting! Until Tomorrow!